Another Attempt
January 30, 2010 2 Comments
I started smoking in 1981. Since then, I have tried to quit on several occasions. My best attempt lasted a month and a half. It wasn’t because I wanted to quit, it was because I had lost my job and had no money for cigarettes,
There are a few things I have to take care of before I can quit. One is that I tend to get flustered easily and my thinking becomes clouded because I no longer have that crutch to calm me down.
The other is that smoking has helped masked some of my signs of Asperger’s Syndrome. I am less anxious around people when I smoke and find it easier to strike up a conversation. I was reclusive before I started smoking and I become reclusive when I go more than a few hours without a cigarette.
I went the first three days of 2010 without a cigarette. I broke down and bought a pack, then went another two days without a cigarette. I have been smoking since, though less than I have in the past.
I recently bought a can of rolling tobacco, which is equivalent to over a carton of cigarettes. I am going to wean off of smoking during this time. Any suggestions on how I can keep a clear head and not be so reclusive would be appreciated.